Autistically Me
Mental Health Poems
Below are a collection of mental health themed poems.
You Matter
When times get rough and the sky above seems to weep
When time slows down, and starts to drag and creep
When time freezes, sucking you down into the dark
Stop what you are doing and find your strong spark
When life gets bad and the world seems to stop
When life hurts and makes your heart drop
When life makes you think twice about your worth
Stop what you are doing and find time outside in the earth
When your friends leave you alone with your doubt
When your friends do nothing other than sit and pout
When your friends you can turn to not
Stop what you are doing and find your happy spot
When your mind can take no more
When your mind has finally hit the hard floor
When your mind circles the drain
Stop what you are doing and let your tears rain
Practice self care, self love and taking time for you
Practice saying no, not doing too much and stopping for a good brew
Practice seeing the good and notice those who are there
But most of all, know that no matter what, it is ok to share
Share the workload, share your feelings, share your mind
Share your triumphs, your fears, share your kind
Share the moments of beauty and hope
Share the moments of horror and the moments you can’t cope
Share your worries aloud, don’t keep them alone
Know there is always someone on the end of a phone
Happy Memory Ashes
Alone. Always alone I think
Watching as my tears start to drip
Numb inside, no feelings to hide
Watching as the blood washes away my pride
One sharp prick, another thin line
Ruby red, rose by design
Voices nulled, stifled silence falls
Pain enthralled, my shame to me calls
Phone calls, fighting for my life
No strength found within myself
Fear rules my entire world
My struggles have finally been unfurled
But nobody notices, wrapped in their own worlds
I struggle to stand, brand new cuts stinging
Utter emptiness flows within me
As I try to cry out for them to see
Weeks pass in a crawl, my uni life crumbles
People are let down, I withdraw from it all
To them I try to speak, try to myself save
But as my world burns, I am no longer brave
Saying my final goodbyes, a night for them to remember
Speaking to a stranger trying to convince me to stay
Yet I’m staring at the pile of pills on my bed
A crushing sadness ringing in my head
I’ve been stashing pills from sight, just in case
Nobody knows, as I force my fate down
Texting helplines, making my suicide letter
All the while, crying into my sodden sweater
Then fear, panic as they all find out
Ambulances are called to save me from myself
Anxiety bubbles deep within, I want to be dead
For I’m realising my dignity has all but fled
Time flashes in and out, my brain is foggy
Nurses come and go, but he stays
Wires are hooked up, I cannot go
And I’m left wishing my life wasn’t my foe
Hours speaking with stranger anew
Rooms upon waiting rooms
Time ticking by, my fate in their hands
All the while, dreaming of the beaches’ warm sands
Dreaming of a time so simple
Of peace, laughter and freedom
Of childhood and worries no more
But in reality my heart is sore
Nothing will be normal now, I have ruined it all
They all know, my lies are torn from my soul
I’m left with nobody, my family all but crashes
And all I am left with, are those happy memories in ashes
All Too Much
It’s all too much to deal with, the stress and emotional pain
I feel like I can’t breathe, like I am drowning in the mental strain
I want to run, to fly, to escape but I am trapped
It’s like my ability to cope has been snapped
Who do I turn to? Who do I trust?
If I turn to him or her, will my security start to rust?
If I yell, scream or cry for help, will they hear?
If I can’t hide, can’t cope, will they jeer?
It’s all too much to deal with, the fear and tutor-based trauma
I feel like I am on edge, unable to unsee the painful drama
I want to flee but also want to run to them, but I am scared
It’s like my insecurities for all have been bared
I’m so terrified they will burn me too
That even my friends will reject me from my arts in health crew
I’m filled to the brim with anxiety and thoughts unsaid
Worried to the bone they will all tear me to a bloody shred
It’s all too much to deal with, the court case, the SA
I feel like I can’t function, I am far from okay
But I have to keep going on, otherwise I’ll fail
And when that happens, everyone I care for here will bail
I’m so worried I will let them all down
That their once welcoming smiles, will turn into a sneering frown
If I break down, lose control, will they stay?
If I can’t deal with it all, would they take some of the stress away?
It’s all too much to deal with all at once, why now?
I feel like all I want to do is sleep, why now?
I want to run from it all, bury my head in the sand, why now?
Why now? Why now? Why now?
It’s all just too much